Sometimes the things we are judged the most for are the things we are doing right. So if someone tells you you are a bad parent, lover, worker, etc....just know that your true being is indeed a Rockstar in these respects. Don't let someone else's insecurities reflect onto you. Choose to be the mirror that reflects their projections of insecurity back onto them.

Why accept judgment from a spouse who has so much time to judge because they aren't doing any of the work?

Seeing repeating numbers (111, 222, 999, 23, 44, 1010, 606, etc.). This could relate to a birthday, loved one, date/event, connection to a dream, etc.

Seeing significant colors (i.e. your first car was blue, seeing more than usual blue cars, lots of pink for love/passion, brown as grounding etc.).

Experiencing an unusual amount of hunger, lack thereof etc.

Needing rest or feeling tired unexpectedly.

Feeling emotions or sadness unexpectedly (possible spiritual connection with another being, experiencing his or her emotions).

Having multiple social plans fall through.

Delay in passing stool (self control as a survival tactic).

Bed wetting.

Thumb sucking.

Fear of intimacy (resistance to hugs, connection, etc).

Narcissistic traits (disconnection from reality).

The need to listen to music or calming sounds to sleep.

I yearned so deeply for my marriage to be real. I wanted the family, support system, unconditional love that I never received as a child. Only later to discover that it too was all a facade. That I was being used to fulfill someone else's fantasy life by being their trophy spouse, mother, caretaker, earner, lover, chef, and with no reciprocation. Only fake dates where we never talked; him taking the kids on campouts, only to go out and get drunk with the boys while the kids played with their friends, but taking the credit for being father of the year. And we all ate up the facade blindly, confusing fast food for the real thing.

I received very little in return for my unending efforts to show I was worthy of love, but freely issuing my love at no cost to my spouse of 17 years. The price of…

Recently I branched outside my comfort zone, which can tend to surface discomfort (triggering) and insights into who we truly are. I was surprised to discover how easy it was to open up in certain areas of my life, but not others. Just when I thought I got to the point of not caring about judgment from others, I felt my wall go up and the feeling of wanting to leave immediately. My past lessons have taught me to stay and be uncomfortable, but I wasn't ready to share, or even aware of why I was feeling that way.

Overthinking. This feeling of discomfort raises so many questions;

Even in a seemingly "safe" environment, why am I feeling this way? Is it actually safe or are my instincts trying to tell me something?

Am I overthinking the situation?

Do I really dislike what I am doing, or is this an…

I recently I branched outside my comfort zone in a yoga/wellness community environment, openly discussing using one of my many self-healing tools, which happened to be alcohol / drinking. This topic can be very "taboo", and is ripe with external (and internal) judgment. I have learned that by embracing the tools we use to find betterment in our lives, without judgment of self, can further propel us into greener pastures of life, so to speak. We are programmed to believe that any form of addiction is unhealthy, toxic, will ruin your life, etc. Two main facts that resonate still today for me are:

1. Do not take the crutch away before you are ready. i.e. if you cannot yet stand on your own two feet, the crutch is there to support you for a reason. This "crutch" can come in many forms, and even though there may be judgment, one must…